Some days are harder then others but most days I have no emotion because I am so exhausted of worrying about all the issues occurring in my life. It is so exhausting to be me some days and I try my hardest to let go of my day to day struggles but I can’t turn my brain off. It feels like I am always in constant fight or flight and that is so draining on my mental state.
I know that I have come a long way in my life and not just with the accident but in everyday life. I have grown a lot since high school and the person I used to be, I had to grow up fast right after high school because I did not just have to take care of myself but I had a baby to care for. I got pregnant right out of high school and I don’t regret it for one minute because now I have a handsome young man that I call my son and he will be graduating next may from high school. I basically raised him on my own along the way I did have help from my wonderful mother and my amazing husband. I am happy with the decision that I made to have him and even though it changed my life it made me the woman I am today. I am very lucky to have a wonderful support system that consists of my husband and my mother and several fabulous friends. I am not sure where I would be without them because anytime I have needed them to vent or just spend time with they have been there. I know that I will move on from this accident and the situation that I am going through but I am tired of always overcoming obstacles one after another. I also know that life is not easy and not without its struggles but it just seems that lately that I have had one catastrophe after another.
I could choose to continue to feel sorry for myself or I could move on with my life and choose to take each day as it comes and make the best of it. I know life is hard but I am not ready to just sit in the corner and complain about how hard it is I choose to live each day to the fullest and push forward because I know that this storm will pass and I will see the bright light at the end of the tunnel. It make take a while to get through this journey I am on but I am going to keep my head up and continue because if I give up then they have won and I am not ready to let that happen.
I just have to keep in mind that I am lucky to be alive and I have so much going for me right now and I have so much more good things ahead of me. I have a beautiful family and they are what keeps me going and I am a grandma and I cherish every moment that I get to spend with my beautiful granddaughter.
The People in My Life That Keep Me Going
Till Next Time,